Chapter Ten
"If any man serve me, let him follow
me."
IT was nearly midnight before the
services at the Rectangle closed. Gray
stayed up long into Sunday morning,
praying and talking with a little group
of converts who in the great experiences
of their new life, clung to the
evangelist with a personal helplessness
that made it as impossible for him to
leave them as if they had been depending
upon him to save them from physical
death. Among these converts was Rollin
Page.
Virginia and her uncle had gone
home about eleven o'clock, and Rachel
and Jasper Chase had gone with them as
far as the avenue where Virginia lived.
Dr. West had walked on a little way with
them to his own home, and Rachel and
Jasper had then gone on together to her
mother's.
That was a little after eleven. It
was now striking midnight, and Jasper
Chase sat in his room staring at the
papers on his desk and going over the
last half hour with painful persistence.
He had told Rachel Winslow of his
love for her, and she had not given him
her love in return. It would be
difficult to know what was most powerful
in the impulse that had moved him to
speak to her tonight. He had yielded to
his feelings without any special thought
of results to himself, because he had
felt so certain that Rachel would
respond to his love. He tried to recall
the impression she made on him when he
first spoke to her.
Never had her beauty and her
strength influenced him as tonight.
While she was singing he saw and heard
no one else. The tent swarmed with a
confused crowd of faces and he knew he
was sitting there hemmed in by a mob of
people, but they had no meaning to him.
He felt powerless to avoid speaking to
her. He knew he should speak when they
were alone.
Now that he had spoken, he felt
that he had misjudged either Rachel or
the opportunity. He knew, or thought he
knew, that she had begun to care
something for him. It was no secret
between them that the heroine of
Jasper's first novel had been his own
ideal of Rachel, and the hero in the
story was himself and they had loved
each other in the book, and Rachel had
not objected. No one else knew. The
names and characters had been drawn with
a subtle skill that revealed to Rachel,
when she received a copy of the book
from Jasper, the fact of his love for
her, and she had not been offended. That
was nearly a year ago.
Tonight he recalled the scene
between them with every inflection and
movement unerased from his memory. He
even recalled the fact that he began to
speak just at that point on the avenue
where, a few days before, he had met
Rachel walking with Rollin Page. He had
wondered at the time what Rollin was
saying.
"Rachel," Jasper had said, and it
was the first time he had ever spoken
her first name, "I never knew till
tonight how much I loved you. Why should
I try to conceal any longer what you
have seen me look? You know I love you
as my life. I can no longer hide it from
you if I would."
The first intimation he had of a
repulse was the trembling of Rachel's
arm in his. She had allowed him to speak
and had neither turned her face toward
him nor away from him. She had looked
straight on and her voice was sad but
firm and quiet when she spoke.
"Why do you speak to me now? I
cannot bear it -- after what we have
seen tonight."
"Why -- what -- " he had stammered
and then was silent.
Rachel withdrew her arm from his
but still walked near him. Then he had
cried out with the anguish of one who
begins to see a great loss facing him
where he expected a great joy.
"Rachel! Do you not love me? Is not
my love for you as sacred as anything in
all of life itself?"
She had walked silent for a few
steps after that. They passed a street
lamp. Her face was pale and beautiful.
He had made a movement to clutch her arm
and she had moved a little farther from
him.
"No," she had replied. "There was a
time I -- cannot answer for that you --
should not have spoken to me -- now."
He had seen in these words his
answer. He was extremely sensitive.
Nothing short of a joyous response to
his own love would ever have satisfied
him. He could not think of pleading with
her.
"Some time -- when I am more
worthy?" he had asked in a low voice,
but she did not seem to hear, and they
had parted at her home, and he recalled
vividly the fact that no good-night had
been said.
Now as he went over the brief but
significant scene he lashed himself for
his foolish precipitancy. He had not
reckoned on Rachel's tense, passionate
absorption of all her feeling in the
scenes at the tent which were so new in
her mind. But he did not know her well
enough even yet to understand the
meaning of her refusal. When the clock
in the First Church struck one he was
still sitting at his desk staring at the
last page of manuscript of his
unfinished novel.
Rachel went up to her room and
faced her evening's experience with
conflicting emotions. Had she ever loved
Jasper Chase? Yes. No. One moment she
felt that her life's happiness was at
stake over the result of her action.
Another, she had a strange feeling of
relief that she had spoken as she had.
There was one great, overmastering
feeling in her. The response of the
wretched creatures in the tent to her
singing, the swift, powerful, awesome
presence of the Holy Spirit had affected
her as never in all her life before. The
moment Jasper had spoken her name and
she realized that he was telling her of
his love she had felt a sudden revulsion
for him, as if he should have respected
the supernatural events they had just
witnessed. She felt as if it was not the
time to be absorbed in anything less
than the divine glory of those
conversions. The thought that all the
time she was singing, with the one
passion of her soul to touch the
conscience of that tent full of sin,
Jasper Chase had been unmoved by it
except to love her for herself, gave her
a shock as of irreverence on her part as
well as on his. She could not tell why
she felt as she did, only she knew that
if he had not told her tonight she would
still have felt the same toward him as
she always had. What was that feeling?
What had he been to her? Had she made a
mistake? She went to her book case and
took out the novel which Jasper had
given her. Her face deepened in color as
she turned to certain passages which she
had read often and which she knew Jasper
had written for her. She read them
again. Somehow they failed to touch her
strongly. She closed the book and let it
lie on the table. She gradually felt
that her thought was busy with the
sights she had witnessed in the tent.
Those faces, men and women, touched for
the first time with the Spirit's glory
-- what a wonderful thing life was after
all! The complete regeneration revealed
in the sight of drunken, vile, debauched
humanity kneeling down to give itself to
a life of purity and Christlikeness --
oh, it was surely a witness to the
superhuman in the world! And the face of
Rollin Page by the side of that
miserable wreck out of the gutter! She
could recall as if she now saw it,
Virginia crying with her arms about her
brother just before she left the tent,
and Mr. Gray kneeling close by, and the
girl Virginia had taken into her heart
while she whispered something to her
before she went out. All these pictures
drawn by the Holy Spirit in the human
tragedies brought to a climax there in
the most abandoned spot in all Raymond,
stood out in Rachel's memory now, a
memory so recent that her room seemed
for the time being to contain all the
actors and their movements.
"No! No!" she said aloud. "He had
no right to speak after all that! He
should have respected the place where
our thoughts should have been. I am sure
I do not love him -- not enough to give
him my life!"
And after she had thus spoken, the
evening's experience at the tent came
crowding in again, thrusting out all
other things. It is perhaps the most
striking evidence of the tremendous
spiritual factor which had now entered
the Rectangle that Rachel felt, even
when the great love of a strong man had
come very near to her, that the
spiritual manifestation moved her with
an agitation far greater than anything
Jasper had felt for her personally or
she for him.
The people of Raymond awoke Sunday
morning to a growing knowledge of events
which were beginning to revolutionize
many of the regular, customary habits of
the town. Alexander Powers' action in
the matter of the railroad frauds had
created a sensation not only in Raymond
but throughout the country. Edward
Norman's daily changes of policy in the
conduct of his paper had startled the
community and caused more comment than
any recent political event. Rachel
Winslow's singing at the Rectangle
meetings had made a stir in society and
excited the wonder of all her friends.
Virginia's conduct, her presence
every night with Rachel, her absence
from the usual circle of her wealthy,
fashionable acquaintances, had furnished
a great deal of material for gossip and
question. In addition to these events
which centered about these persons who
were so well known, there had been all
through the city in very many homes and
in business and social circles strange
happenings. Nearly one hundred persons
in Henry Maxwell's church had made the
pledge to do everything after asking:
"What would Jesus do?" and the result
had been, in many cases, unheard-of
actions. The city was stirred as it had
never been before. As a climax to the
week's events had come the spiritual
manifestation at the Rectangle, and the
announcement which came to most people
before church time of the actual
conversion at the tent of nearly fifty
of the worst characters in that
neighborhood, together with the con
version of Rollin Page, the well-known
society and club man.
It is no wonder that under the
pressure of all this the First Church of
Raymond came to the morning service in a
condition that made it quickly sensitive
to any large truth. Perhaps nothing had
astonished the people more than the
great change that had come over the
minister, since he had proposed to them
the imitation of Jesus in conduct. The
dramatic delivery of his sermons no
longer impressed them. The self-
satisfied, contented, easy attitude of
the fine figure and refined face in the
pulpit had been displaced by a manner
that could not be compared with the old
style of his delivery. The sermon had
become a message. It was no longer
delivered. It was brought to them with a
love, an earnestness, a passion, a
desire, a humility that poured its
enthusiasm about the truth and made the
speaker no more prominent than he had to
be as the living voice of God. His
prayers were unlike any the people had
heard before. They were often broken,
even once or twice they had been
actually ungrammatical in a phrase or
two. When had Henry Maxwell so far
forgotten himself in a prayer as to make
a mistake of that sort? He knew that he
had often taken as much pride in the
diction and delivery of his prayers as
of his sermons. Was it possible he now
so abhorred the elegant refinement of a
formal public petition that he purposely
chose to rebuke himself for his previous
precise manner of prayer? It is more
likely that he had no thought of all
that. His great longing to voice the
needs and wants of his people made him
unmindful of an occasional mistake. It
is certain that he had never prayed so
effectively as he did now.
There are times when a sermon has a
value and power due to conditions in the
audience rather than to anything new or
startling or eloquent in the words said
or arguments presented. Such conditions
faced Henry Maxwell this morning as he
preached against the saloon, according
to his purpose determined on the week
before. He had no new statements to make
about the evil influence of the saloon
in Raymond. What new facts were there?
He had no startling illustrations of the
power of the saloon in business or
politics. What could he say that had not
been said by temperance orators a great
many times? The effect of his message
this morning owed its power to the
unusual fact of his preaching about the
saloon at all, together with the events
that had stirred the people. He had
never in the course of his ten years'
pastorate mentioned the saloon as
something to be regarded in the light of
an enemy, not only to the poor and
tempted, but to the business life of the
place and the church itself. He spoke
now with a freedom that seemed to
measure his complete sense of conviction
that Jesus would speak so. At the close
he pleaded with the people to remember
the new life that had begun at the
Rectangle. The regular election of city
officers was near at hand. The question
of license would be an issue in the
election. What of the poor creatures
surrounded by the hell of drink while
just beginning to feel the joy of
deliverance from sin? Who could tell
what depended on their environment? Was
there one word to be said by the
Christian disciple, business man,
citizen, in favor of continuing the
license to crime and shame-producing
institutions? Was not the most Christian
thing they could do to act as citizens
in the matter, fight the saloon at the
polls, elect good men to the city
offices, and clean the municipality? How
much had prayers helped to make Raymond
better while votes and actions had
really been on the side of the enemies
of Jesus? Would not Jesus do this? What
disciple could imagine Him refusing to
suffer or to take up His cross in this
matter? How much had the members of the
First Church ever suffered in an attempt
to imitate Jesus? Was Christian
discipleship a thing of conscience
simply, of custom, of tradition? Where
did the suffering come in? Was it
necessary in order to follow Jesus'
steps to go up Calvary as well as the
Mount of Transfiguration?
His appeal was stronger at this
point than he knew. It is not too much
to say that the spiritual tension of the
people reached its highest point right
there. The imitation of Jesus which had
begun with the volunteers in the church
was working like leaven in the
organization, and Henry Maxwell would
even thus early in his life have been
amazed if he could have measured the
extent of desire on the part of his
people to take up the cross. While he
was speaking this morning, before he
closed with a loving appeal to the
discipleship of two thousand years'
knowledge of the Master, many a man and
woman in the church was saying as Rachel
had said so passionately to her mother:
"I want to do something that will cost
me something in the way of sacrifice."
"I am hungry to suffer something."
Truly, Mazzini was right when he said
that no appeal is quite so powerful in
the end as the call: "Come and suffer."
The service was over, the great
audience had gone, and Maxwell again
faced the company gathered in the
lecture room as on the two previous
Sundays. He had asked all to remain who
had made the pledge of discipleship, and
any others who wished to be included.
The after service seemed now to be a
necessity. As he went in and faced the
people there his heart trembled. There
were at least one hundred present. The
Holy Spirit was never before so
manifest. He missed Jasper Chase. But
all the others were present. He asked
Milton Wright to pray. The very air was
charged with divine possibilities. What
could resist such a baptism of power?
How had they lived all these years
without it?
They counseled together and there
were many prayers. Henry Maxwell dated
from that meeting some of the serious
events that afterward became a part of
the history of the First Church and of
Raymond. When finally they went home,
all of them were impressed with the
glory of the Spirit's power.
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