Prayer: Give Me or Take Me?
I have had the opportunity to observe Buddhist culture a couple of occasions when I have taught college courses in Thailand. The overtness of Buddhist devotion was something new to me. It was not uncommon to encounter a shrine to Buddha where people were praying, chanting, and offering incense, or rubbing gold leaf onto an image.
Buddhist temples are colourful and interesting cultural icons, standing out in the landscape. My Thai friends would often tell me about the various Buddhist liturgies, and I soon learned that the Buddhist equivalent of prayer was one of the major activities. Many of the prayers were about receiving good luck. The worshipers wanted to win the lottery, or the heart of a young man/lady, or be successful in business and so on.
I was dismissive at first and put it down to heathen greed. On reflection however (eight hours on a plane back to Australia), I wondered if we Christians were all that different. Now I would not pray to win the lottery – that would indeed be a sin – but some of my prayers really have been a bit self-centered.
I have done a lot of praying in my life – prayers that were important to me, but seemingly went unanswered; prayers that were nothing more than a ritual of recitation before falling into bed at night, or after falling out of bed in the morning; prayers for reassurance when I learned that I had to have emergency surgery on Sabbath morning during the time of the church service, and so on. I have hda to ask myself what did they really achieve, and what did I get out of them?
My moment of revelation came one day at a group prayer where everyone around the group was supposed to pray. As usual I was trying to think up something really smart to say so that the group would remember my prayer as a contribution to their Christian experience, when someone’s prayer cut right across my thoughts. They had prayed for something where I knew I could help. And then it hit me right where it mattered. You have got to use your ears when you pray. I knew that I could help someone, and I had learned that while I was praying. My attitude to prayer was about what to say, when it should have been what can I hear?
Jacob found that out. He wrestled a whole night with an angel but it was only in the morning when he was in pain that he was prepared to listen. The promise of prayer is not about thinking out the smart question for God to answer, but about being the answer that God wants you to be.